I’m Not Angry Anymore

7. Young children all over the world are singing and dancing before they even realize there is anything that isn’t music.

Poking around on twitter while knitting (yes, it’s possible.) I saw a tweet from the awesome Dan about the musical March Madness.

Hm… I’d put up the Disturbed vs. Coheed March Madness link, but I’ve got a LOT of Coheed fans [following me], unfortunately.

It kind of got me thinking, if I had the choice to listen to only cds from either band for a full day, I’d have to go with Coheed & Cambria. This may not seem odd to anyone other than me. See, once upon a time, that would NOT have been the answer. It would have been Disturbed all the way. But I thought about it and lately, while driving around, I’ve had my mp3 player hooked up to my car stereo and I’ve just been playing through my library. When I got to Disturbed? I skipped the albums. Coheed? Listened to all of them. Thinking about it some more I’ve skipped almost every metal album on my mp3 player when it’s come up. I even skipped some Killswitch Engage and I adore them.

I was trying to figure out what had changed. I still think those bands are awesome bands, and there are still a great many songs that I really like, but why did I not want to listen to them? And then it hit me. I’m not angry any more. Sadly, my Google-Fu is not as strong as it could be, and I couldn’t find the exact quote, but there was an interview with Corey Taylor of Slipknot shortly before Stone Sour’s first cd was released. The interviewer asked him why he was going in such a sharply different direction from Slipknot. I’m paraphrasing, but Corey basically said “Because life’s too short and no one can be that angry all the time. I’m not a pissed off kid anymore.” To some extent it’s true. I know this may be hard to believe, but not so long ago I was not this awesome. Instead of being annoyingly awesomely perky and full of rainbow sprinkles, I was … jaded and a bit cynical. I was stuck (or so it felt) in a marriage to someone I cared deeply for, but who talked down to me and cheated on me many times. I wasn’t so much bitter about the situation as I just didn’t see a way out of it, which pissed me off. Metal shows were the place where I could take out my anger and be pissed off and it was okay. But not being in that situation anymore, I don’t need that outlet. Don’t get me wrong, I still love my moshpits, I just prefer them at punk shows now. I guess in a way, I always preferred punk to metal, but my ex was more of a metal head and not always very open to bands so I mostly went along with it rather than listen to the inevitable “UGH.”

The other thing I’ve noticed lately is that while the lyrics of songs have always spoken to me more than the music, the lyrics seem to affect me more now than they ever did. If I listen to songs with a darker content I seem to pick up on that an it will actually sway my mood. So if I’m going to put out the effort of being mad and listening to angry music I’m going to pick angry pissed off punk simply for the mentality of “ok, I’m pissed so I’m going to DO something about it” rather than the “I’m pissed so I’m going to be angry and wallow in the anger” mood that metal seems to give me.

That being said, I’m glad I can get my dose of Corey Taylor via the much less angry Stone Sour. ;)

One thought on “I’m Not Angry Anymore

  1. I need to give Stone Sour a listen at some point.

    Anyway, for me, the reason I like that type of music isn’t because I’m an angry 20 year old (well, at least, I don’t think I am), but it’s because I find it a lot more energizing than softer music like Coheed.

    I would love to listen to softer music, I really would. Problem is, some softer music literally makes me sleepy, and for me personally that’s a bad thing.

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